MetalHibernation

It is winter. Yes. And Metal Scapegoat has been hibernating, wise thing to do, since it was so darn cold here. No goat can do much when it is -30 and below. So cold air slowed brain activity to minimum, and I enjoyed the darkness under a blanket, listened metal but otherwise, hibernated.


Of course things have happened here and it has been pretty busy too, but the best part is the lair I now have. There, after few weeks of waiting , I listened the new album of Nightwish in total peace. I had Imaginaerum on my table a week or two before I felt the time is right to listen it. So, when it was dark late at evening, I crawled to my lair and in dim light put player on.

And at this point I have to say, I did not listen any samples or singles or anything before I listened the whole album. To me it worked, for I really think this time any song taken apart of the whole story there, gives no justice to song. But it was not easy to do, luckily I didnt have to go to any big supermarkets where radio is on. Few times in car if radio was on I had really rush to get CD  on since Storytime was about to start there or was going on already...

When I started to listen the album and first song was sang in finnish by Marco, it really calmed thoughts away from everything else. My lair was great choise to listen it, no sound or noise reaches there, si I could easily swim in the flow the music caused there.

First I was really surprised, and  amused as well. There was few really surprising elements on some songs, but also something really touching. All and all, the album is really great, and touching, interesting and I am sure it reaches more people and gives everyone something special.

Ghost River is my favourite on that album, for some reason it gives me creeps. I often have that album on when do my daily works. And  Song of Myself gives us all something to think of. Genious.

Also, in these slow cold months I have listened much more new bands to me, but I will tell of those more later. Now, slowly waking from this sleep, goat needs to get warm first...

Untill next time....

All that is left

"Blood
boiling in my veins
only feeling that remains

Hatred
blinding my eyes
numbness being its disguise

And it all is just in vain

Death
waiting for us
all shall fall
-no more-

Pain fester inside
forevermore

It all ends tonight"

(c)MS11

Darkness

The darkness got a spark of light
light remained for a moment
made home there, stood a little while
until, it slowly faded
 
The longing, the lust, everything unseen was
 left behind and will never leave
never leave

It was something too good to be true
it was not meant to stay 
The darkness craves what belongs within
 ...there i stray...

From outside everything is seen
walking alone, vanish, in me the
 feelings are fading away, away
 ...Inside the darkness I stay.... 

 (c)MAO11

Today when I was driving my car at quite early morning, and I was really sleepy, the one band that got me more awake was Drudkh. You know, that Ukrainian metal band that mixes elements of folk and black metal.
Their lyrical contents embrace Slavic mythology, seasons and poetry. Many of the band's lyrics are derived from the works of nineteenth- and twentieth-century Ukrainian poets, especially Taras Shevchenko.

That was really cool thing to listen, when had the right songs, while driving at foggy finnish country side. The mist on the woods and fields, the road that seems it has been there for ages... First rays of slowly rising sun through purple clouds.... In one word, it was magical. Especially when the next song was by My Shameful.

After that it was a bit difficult to come back to this reality. I wouldn't mind to stay there, in that silent dream-like empty timeless space. Lacking everything reality has.

Then, another band that usually cheers me up quite lot, is Skepticism. That is kinda funny, because it is sort of depressive doom, but then again, I really enjoy listening to it. That gives another great paint for me to use it on that little world of mine.

As my name is Scapegoat, i find it amusing a great band called Forgotten Tomb  has a song called The Scapegoat (from albun Negative Megalomania, 2007). I was laughing at it until i listened it. What a great song! But words were those that did cut my heart.

How the hell can that fit so great in the shitty part of my life too? Or is it only that some people have the talent to write of their own experiences in such a way everyone can relate to it? At least I did. I listened it few times in a row, and then took the lyrics infront of me.  If someone doesn't know the song, I put lyrics here.


The Scapegoat

They want to force me in the corner once again
When I was thinking there was difference between us and them
A bird with its wings nailed to the ground
Waiting for the justice that I never found

I'm just the scapegoat for you all
To brush away the dirt from your rotten souls

When friendship's a lie, and life's a fragile dream
I struggle so much, but my hate remains unseen

I'm just the scapegoat for you all
I'm just the scapegoat for you all

It's so easy to talk when you're not walking in my shoes
Try to be like I am for 1 day, and see what would be left of you

I look in the past and I can't see a single face I would still call friend
Just don't forget sooner or later all lies come to an end

They want to enjoy my end, they wait for my defeat
I'm really sorry buddies, I'm still on my feet
I've been cast in tears and blood
I've been treated like a dog
Not their fake pathetic lives
Not their sickening disguise

I'm just the scapegoat for you all
To brush away the dirt from your rotten souls

When all seems to be wrong, there's a place where I find myself
In my sea of distrust, I am sure I don't need any help

I'm just the scapegoat for you all
I'm just the scapegoat for you all

It's so easy for them to judge the life of others
They're all made of the same poisoned blood
They would even sell their mothers

I look in the future and I know I won't make the same mistakes
I know someday things will be different and with scorn I will piss on your graves

Band: Forgotten Tomb
Album: Negative Megalomania
Year:2007


That touched me deeper than it should've. But i love the song, whole song as it is.

I am listening to it at this moment too, and I have a pretty strong feeling I will have few drinks with it when evening and darkness comes to join me, again.

Pain.

Pain, that creation of Peter Tägtgren, is having some gigs in Finland. And one is here so close I was about to go there.

I saw Pain once before, 2009, and I really liked that show. Now, since the new album is out, and Peter promised the show will be something unseen, I really wanted to go.

My typical luck is that everything I try, goes totally wrong. This time I have to give up and hope I will see Pain later, and tonight I will have a shot, and listen some Pain here at home.

My first Pain album was Dancing With The Dead and that was a blast. Soon I had them all, well, but one, and that I got a week ago. In so many songs I can relate to, and with some hard stuff going on, it has been great to hear Peter scream instead of me. He's had quite hard stuff, and that can be heard, really.

Follow Me is a song that i like a lot too. Because of its pace, lyrics, Anette in it and the video too is so great. Every song tells a story and some parts of everyone's life they perfectly fit.

I really hope the gig is as awesome I imagine it is, and hopefully I can go next time.

Even more metal, without handcuffs this time

Totalselfhatred.

Really not much more to say.
I found that piece of art a while ago and just immetiately fell in love with it. Especially one specific song hit me so hard it came to my dreams too. I would say so if have the words. Or the ability to put them in such a form.

Nothing more to say. If you don't know it, go and listen to it.